don't really do the da thing any more. it's all become a little too, well something, for me. life moves on and some of the things that you thought were important become a lot less so, and others that may have seemed trivial become more and more critical. I don't miss da in any way whatsoever. I do miss some of the people that made it fun for me, but they mostly fell off long before I did so, as they say, fuck it.
though I don't really do anything here any more, i still feel obliged to mark this anniversary. the actual date has kind of escaped me after so long and looking back I've marked it on various dates around August 15 over the past few years, so since I'm sitting, waiting for a load, I guess now is a good time.
no grand words or grandiose expressions of, well, anything really. it's been five years since I decided to rejoin the world of the living. it feels good to be here and I sure as shit wouldn't trade it or go back. the truth is that even after I made the first right choice; to quit with the drugs, I continued, for several years, making shitty decisions. it wasn't until two years ago that I actually made a good one that positively affected my life.
things haven't been all wine and roses since then, but I'm going forward instead of retreating or standing still, so overall things are good. time and all the abuse I've visited on my body are starting to catch up with me, but I'm pretty sure I have at least a couple more good years left in me and I plan to spend them doing something worthwhile.
that's about it for now. I don't think I'll revisit this again next year or ever again really, so for now, farewell.
be excellent to each other