I'm sorry you feel that way. Whatever, we are all human, we all make mistakes... just get over it. I know, some things are impossible to forgive, but if people around you try hard they may be able to do so. And well, you just have to learn from experience... I'm sure you won't do whatever you've done this time again.

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No great artist ever sees things as they really are. If he did, he would cease to be an artist - Oscar Wilde

Wow... I really wish I could help in some way, however insignificant. All I can say is, good luck Allen. I hope everything works out for you

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Oh shoot... I missed!

Face front, Allen. No regrets. Just learn from it and pledge to:

• be impeccable with your word


• don't take anything personally


• don't make assumptions


• always do your best

There is a next time, so do better next time.

--care for your friends--

<sup>i hope there is a next time my friend. i really do. at this point i'm not sure. too much damage may have been done. not just by me, but on both sides.

as for the bullet points,

my word is all i have. i've striven to keep it impeccable

i take everything personally so that will be a struggle

i will certainly attempt to not make assumptions. however, sometimes they're all i have to go on.

but, ultimately, i will do my best. it's the best i can do.

take care of my friends? i'm really feeling like that's something i haven't done such a good job of, ever. i've tried, but my best intentions always seem to explode in my face.

it's not a good day to be me.</sup>

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^{all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk}

^{thank you Greta. i'm afraid there's no helping this situation. i'll just sit and wait and hope and pray that time will heal it.}

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^{all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk}

^{um... thanks. i think}



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^{all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk}

It's a Damien Rice level fuck up? Shit, I'm sorry for whoever got the recieving end of that. All I can say is scrounge up some 151 or some Jagermeister and close your eyes.

I've only ever made one mistake that called for Rice and some 151/Jag (yah, I mixed them. It kicks you on your ass and keeps you there for days) and it was the worst time of my life thus far.

So I'm sorry for all parties involved.

It's been a while since I've offered you one of these because I know that it means shit, but what the hell.

Have a hug.

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<sup>every little bit of this is beautiful, even the parts that are too sad to bear alone.

slow down, it's alright


I'm not the one you want.</sup>

<sup>oh yeah, it's definitely a damien rice level fuckup.

jager makes me violent. as does tequila. so i'll pass on that. the place where i find myself doesn't allow drinking so i'm going to have to put that urge on hold. some days i wonder if i was better off in the van. at least then i could have a beer when i wanted. but that's neither here nor there.

i do have access to some very fun pills. i'll probably indulge and take a bunch of xanax. though i took them last night and got nothing but night terrors all night for my effort. hadn't had night terrors in almost two years before last night. ugh...

maybe i'll have a cocktail tonight. got some klonopin and trazadone too. that ought to do the trick. nothing like a pharmaceutical vacation

thanks for the hug hun. it means a lot. definitely a lot more than shit.

you coming to my show? it's not all that far down the road from you. well, 250+ miles, but in the grand scheme it's not too far.</sup>



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^{all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk}

don't drown your sorrows in drugs (prescription, otc, or otherwise) or alcohol. that's severely uncool. bad for you, bad for your loved ones.

i'm done preaching now. sorry about the way you feel right now, i have no idea what it is you did, so i can't really offer much comfort or any advice specific to your situation. i can however tell you that you are the best version of yourself right now. don't concentrate on the past, don't think about the future. just accept who you are, and be the person you want to be. every moment. because the present is the only reality that matters, so at every moment you are the best version of yourself that you can be. (am i making any sense? it's a great philosophy and it's done me a world of good. i just don't feel that i'm doing it any justice.)

i hope only the best for you. feel better.

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