we're both broken in our own little ways
we're broken, but we fit together just right
you know i saw the black inside your eyes
i saw they were eclipsed by mine
and they looked just right.
when our lights meet, will you know me then
and will you want to know it?
it feels like i've known you for so long.
when our lights meet, will you love me then
and will you ever know it?
it seems like you've known me for so long.
i love your analogies.
we're both crazy in our own little ways
we talk about the future and our past lives.
i know i loved you then.
i know i'd love you now.
i know i'll love you then.
i know i love you now.
when our lights meet, will you know me then
and will you want to know it?
it feels like i've known you for so long.
when our lights meet, will you love me then
and will you ever know it?
it seems like you've known me for so long.
but you can't have everything you want when you want it.
i will be everything you want, when you want it.
wait for me. trust for me.
fall for me. even when you don't know you're falling for me.
will you fall for it? if it should, it'll come around again.
but don't wait for me. and don't trust in me. don't fall me.
even when you know you're falling for me.
when our lights meet, will you know me then
and will you want to know it?
it feels like i've known you for so long.
when our lights meet, will you love me then
and will you ever know it?
it seems like you've known me for so long.
when our hearts meet, will we make it then.
will we even notice that they are eclipsed?
--matisyn
the others who are embroiled in this clusterfuck are a lot better with words than i. all that needs to be said has been. and far more eloquently than i would have been able to by the way. therefore, i'm saying nothing more on the matter. i'm going to face forward as i've been advised and wait for it to all play out. in the meantime i think it's a good time to revisit the rules...
Instructions for Life1. Take into account that great love and great achievements
involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R's:
Respect for self
Respect for others and
Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a
wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great
friendship.
7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate
steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think
back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your
life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current
situation. Don't bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love
for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get
it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.
I also know that dreams really do come true and you have my Best Wishes and my best efforts in those.
--His Holiness The Dalai Lama
just so there's no misunderstanding, these are for me. anyone else can interpret them and apply as they see fit, but i am in no way suggesting that anyone else follow them or even read them for that matter. please don't read anything between those lines.
regardless of the consequences of what i involved myself in there is one thing that will never change.
i am speaking directly to you right now.
i love you unconditionally. there will never be anything you can do to change that. you can shut me out of your life for the rest of it and i will never stop loving you unconditionally and wishing the best of everything for you.
my love isn't about what i get from you. it's about doing all i can to ensure that you become the person that you know you want to be. it is about helping you acheive the potential that i and the rest of the world sees. it is about you becoming the mother, artist, the woman, and ultimately, the person that deep down you want to be. nothing more. nothing less.
with that i will bid you adieu. you know how to reach me if you decide it's something you want to do.
ajm
we love our tragedies... 
Sorrow
Devious Comments
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every little bit of this is beautiful, even the parts that are too sad to bear alone.
slow down, it's alright
I'm not the one you want.
i dunno. feel better!! i know you said you'd look forward and all, so there isn't much purpose to my choir preaching. but really, what good does wallowing do anyone? i love the rules. there are a few that i kinda look at and go, eh... but for the most part, i absolutely agree with them. now here's the hard part. don't TRY to live your life by them. LIVE your life by them. once you accept the reality of doing rather than trying, life makes a whole heck-of-a-lot more sense. *rolls eyes at yoda philosophy* i do believe in it though.
once again, this time fo' reals: i'm done preaching now.
"happiness is 2 kinds of ice cream." know that one, music guy? (if you do i'll only like you that much more.
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no worries on the choir preaching. i need all the positive reinforcement that i can get. especially when i am getting the opposite from where it really matters. not that it doesn't matter coming from you or anyone else on here for that matter. but there is one person that something positive would be beyond welcome from. and it ain't happening.
i could whine about it and bitch because of how fucked this is, but honestly i'm done with that.
when all is said and done i am one of the luckiest people on earth. in a month my photography will be posted on the walls of two main rooms in a gallery. that's a goal i've been working toward for a long time. and it's finally happenig for me.
in two hours i have a date with, not one, but two very attractive young ladies. we are going to art walk here in springfield and there's a pretty good chance they'll buy me a bunch of drinks and try to take advantage of me. one already did '
ten days ago i was living in my van with no electricity, showering at a truck stop, wondering where i was going to get money for my next meal. now i have a roof over my head, a relatively steady income, and plenty of food.
i complain a lot, but when all is said and done it's really stupid for me to. i don't have the one thing that would make my life all i ever dreamed of, but i have a lot of other things that a lot of people would kill for. so i can't bitch. really.
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all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
i hate the fact that there are people way better off who do nothing BUT complain. really, don't worry about it. everyone needs to once in a while, you're not at the point where i wanna say to shut the hell up, so it's all good.
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come on out to missouri, i think we can probably find you two southern girls that would be more than happy to show you a good time
i was looking at your profile earlier. i see you're a recovering mormon. congratulations on that. i've got my own issues with religion, not LDS, but something similar. i think that's why we get each other so well. i'm very happy to have met you to be sure. look forward to more conversation
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all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
i'm moving to san francisco soon, i'm sure i'll find a beautiful woman there.
when you said LDS i initially read it LSD and i was like "what does that have to do with mormonism?" but then i got it right and almost ruined my cover by laughing. (i'm in US history right now. ugh. i'm in college and i still have to write a paper about COTTON... *shudders*) hard not to be a recovering mormon once you find out you're bisexual. sad thing about it is it's gonna give me issues for the rest of my life. you can kick the habit of going, you can stop believing the teachings, but you always see through the eyes of an EX-mormon. never just a PERSON. sucks.
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i will get around to looking at it at some point, but i am swamped right now. building a website, getting prints ready for my show, schmoozing with new gallery people for my next show, dealing with life's little dramas, etc, etc, leaves little time to browse art. i added you because i think you're a cool cat
now i'm the one who needs to shut up. of course there's the issue of the comment ablve too...
this is the third time in my life i've lived in MO. i've enjoyed it each time. once you get over the fact that they're a little repressed and backward, it's a really cool place. people are friendly for the most part and unpretensious. san francisco is a fun place to visit. i don't think i could live there. i'd get way too caught up in the freak show. i love being different. not to the point of flamboyance, but i definitely stand out in a crowd. it's a lot harder to do that in a place like san francisco which means i'd have to try harder. that could get scary.
US history? on a saturday? that sounds exciting. i had a psych class on a saturday once. never once went. could never make it past my hangover to class. bad news. so you're a real-life art student? what medium are you working in?
i know exactly what you mean about the way you were raised coloring your perception about damn near everything. i can tell you that it fades in time. i'm 32 now and i don't judge like i used to. it took many years, but i am about the open-mindedest (yes that is a word. i just coined it) mofo you'll meet.
so my advice (completely unsolicited of course) is keep going. keep your mind open. keep being just who you are, nothing more and nothing less, and things will come together for you. the judgements will start to fall away and you'll notice yourself seeing people for who they are. it's just an ongoing process.
best advice i've ever gotten...
life's a journey. not a destination.
now i've ranted on far too long. enjoy history class
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all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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