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that i would be good...

Journal Entry: Tue May 5, 2009, 9:00 AM

























even if i did nothing
that i would be good
even if i got the thumbs down
that i would be good
if i got and stayed sick
that i would be good
even if i gained ten pounds

that i would be fine
even if i went bankrupt
that i would be good
if i lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great
if i was no longer queen
that i would be grand
if i lost all knowing

that i would be loved
even when i numb myself
that i would be good
even when i'm overwhelmed
that i would be loved
even when i was fuming
that i would be good
even if i was clingy

i would be good
even if i lost sanity
that i would be good
whether with or without you




--alanis















it's finally happened. allenjmillerdotcom is officially online.

i've been burning the midnight oil for the last week trying to get it together. it's not even close to what i'd like it to be, but it's something. i want it to be so much more, but with my limited programming skills and non-existent budget for such things i did what i could.

i also designed a business card. it looks a little like this:

cardfront_edit

the cards are printed and on their way to me as we speak. that's pretty cool. i'd like to thank my brother from another mother `jerryhazard for the consult and expedited printing and shipping on them. you are one bad mofo :peace:

i'm headed out to the gallery this afternoon to show off the prints that came on saturday. things are coming together nicely.

on the personal front things aren't going so well.

i learned today that i've got two weeks to vacate the place i've been staying for the last two weeks. don't even have the first clue what i'm going to do about that. michigan's still an option i guess, but with the way everything has been coming together with getting my artistic career off the ground i really don't want to leave. i guess i've got a couple more weeks to figure that one out.

i've been getting odd jobs here and there, but nothing to really count on or to pay rent with. i guess i'll just have to hope for the best. worst case, i've still got the van.

so overall right now is a time of great rollercoastering as usual in my life. things are good on one side and for shit on the other. the international excursion is still on the table, but there's a big part of me that wants to stick around because my art really is starting to take off. but six months or so outside the USA certainly has its charm.

not much else to say really. go check out the website and let me knkow what you think. any and all suggestions on improvement will be appreciated. if someone wants to volunteer to build me something presentable that would really be appreciated too.

i hope you're all doing well.

be excellent to each other

:peace:

ajm








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=painting-with-light May 5, 2009, 9:16:11 AM
So far the website is looking great :) any further work carried out on will definitely improve the overall look.

Personally, if there is a real chance of you making a living out of photography I suggest you stick around rather than going away for 6 months.
Whatever your decision is, good luck

--
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My friend srawberry-lilla

Maltese Deviants
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*ka-te May 5, 2009, 11:23:49 AM
it's a good website. thank you for not putting music on it. people hate that. (i don't, but people do) it's interesting, i'm taking portfolio development right now and the hardest part is the marketing stuff, which is the most essential part cuz that's how you get your name out and all that. i just have a hard time putting myself out there like that. your website is everything a website should be for a photographer: simple, few colors in the background, easy to understand and move through. nothing distracting, but still personal (i like your copyright, btw. :D) i think the only thing i'd really change is setting the slideshow on your exhibitions to show each image a little bit longer. as is, i barely had time to read the title and then look at the image. i want to take the full image in, not just get a snapshot in my brain.

as far as leaving for 6 months, i'd wait to decide on that until after your gallery thing. see how that goes, it's a complicated decision. would you be leaving to take more pictures? that would be a really great experience for anyone, let alone someone who could use the photo therapy as much as you could right now. there are so many photographic journeys i want to take outside of this country. but if it looks like your photography is about to take off here, i'd wait on leaving the country. your decision in the end though, that's just my input.

be excellent to yourself. :D

--
Awesome contest with an AWESOME theme: [link]

go check it out!!
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=Androidt May 5, 2009, 12:21:15 PM
It appears your website is through smugmug (the green gives it away). Have you visited digitalgrin.com? If not, its Smugmug's help forum. The moderators are a great deal of help with customizing. There are also a boatload of FAQs and ready made code to help those with limited/no knowledge of CSS or java programming.
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=allenjmiller May 5, 2009, 1:56:34 PM
thanks for the heads up. i'm actually going to go a whole other route with this. smugmug is nice, but what they offer for the cost is a bit less than i want and a bit more than i want to pay. i'm going to write my website from scratch. it's going to be html based. i'm going to leave it as is for the next ten days or so and then introduce exactly what i want when the time comes. thanks for the input

--
all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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=Androidt May 5, 2009, 5:28:37 PM
I agree the cost is a little steep for what is offered. Smugmug is reworking their pro accounts (smugmugpro.com). I'm waiting to see what they come up with before deciding whether or not to jump ship. Good luck with the new site.
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=allenjmiller May 6, 2009, 6:17:08 AM
thanks Chris. it's going to be completely redesigned. i don't like the interface right now. looking for a webhost and then i'm going to take it offline and work on a complete rebuild.

--
all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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=allenjmiller May 6, 2009, 6:19:54 AM
thanks

--
all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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=allenjmiller May 7, 2009, 7:30:36 AM
excellent to myself...

that's something i'm not all that good at. i'm learning. have been working on that one for a very long time. still trying to get a handle on it.

the website is going to be completely redesigned at some point. dunno when. i need to get a job. ugh

leaving for six months is very appealing. i don't know if i am going to do it yet. i am tempted. i've got ten days left where i'm staying right now and then it will be back to the streets so it's really tempting to just bolt.

i'll wait until my show opens of course, but then i may just get out oof the old USA for a while. maybe for good if i'm lucky

--
all the ways you wish you could be,
that's me.
i look like you wanna look,
i fuck like you wanna fuck,
i am smart, capable,
and most importantly,
i am free in all the ways that you are not.
--palahniuk
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